‘Game Of Thrones’ Star Kit Harington Admits To Having Suicidal Thoughts Amid Addiction Struggles

Harington sought treatment for alcoholism in 2019 at the height of his fame in “Game of Thrones” and entered rehab as the finale was being produced. He previously admitted to experiencing suicidal thoughts at that time, according to GQ.

The journey toward recovery wasn’t an easy one and he said he considers sobriety to be a true accomplishment.

“The very fact that I can be proud of it is an achievement,” he said.

He went on to describe how hard on himself he was during his darkest hours.

“Because before getting sober, I would stare in the mirror and call myself a cunt,” he said. “I’d hate myself.”

The fame and fortune may have appeared fulfilling from afar, but Harington’s internal struggle was very real.

LOS ANGELES, CALIFORNIA – MARCH 14: Kit Harrington attends the red carpet premiere of the Apple Original Series “Extrapolations” at Hammer Museum on March 14, 2023 in Los Angeles, California. (Photo by Michael Tullberg/FilmMagic) Getty Images

“I would literally despise myself and not be proud of anything I’d done. I couldn’t be proud,” he said, as he explained the deterioration of his mental health at the time. “So the fact that I am proud of getting sober is in and of itself a mark of being an entirely different person. And now, every set I step onto, whatever work I do, I’m proud of, because I know I put everything into it.”

He contrasted his current state of mind with his past experiences, saying, “whereas before I had this huge monkey on my back that was just, like, weighing me down.”